I never had thought you will leave me so soon. I was really not ready to say goodbye. And don’t think I still am ready to say goodbye. How can I? You were (And I hate to write this in past tense) an integral part of my life. My father, my dadio, my Babaudi. There are no words to express my remorse at this point. I know life is uncertain and we don’t have control on life and death. But still, why? Why you had to leave me so soon?
The thing is, we miss you a lot. The home has lost its voice. It has become so quiet since you left. The walls too wait for you to talk in your unique style. Oh, what won’t I give to talk to you endlessly again.
I know every kid thinks this about their father and I am no different- You are my Hero!
I know how much struggle you had in your life. But you never showed it on your face nor in your conversations. All you had were stories of your adventures in life. I miss our conversations on general knowledge, travel, books, movies and series. It was you who introduced me to English movies and novels. It was you who made me fall in love with literature. Thank you for giving me the gift of reading. Due to this gift I am never lonely.
You gave me everything in abundance. It is because of that whenever anyone asked me “What do you want?” I had difficulties answering that as you have given me everything I ever wanted whenever I wanted.
Since very beginning you insisted me to fluent English. That was the reason that against everybody else’s wish you admitted me in English School rather than our local language one. And now at this point I cannot thank you enough as this decision of yours made my future life so much easier.
Thank you for raising me as a free thinker. You never even once tried to impose me with your opinions. You gave the opinions but never made me follow them. You gave me choice to make my own opinions. You guided me through life’s path but never made me live it with any sorts of rule. It is because of you I am an unbiased free thinker. And I am very proud of this.
I know I was apple of your eye. Even when we had our arguments, which use to happen many a time; we both knew it was only because we cared deeply for each other. You never missed a chance to show me how much you loved me, cared for me. I just hope you knew it that, I love you and cared about you the most too.
I am very proud of the fact that I was able to share each and every thing with you. There hadn’t been a topic I couldn’t share with you. You made me share everything so comfortably that I never feared what will you think if I share my opinion about a thing which was different from yours. I still do remember the faces of people when they caught us talking upon the topics which are usually never discussed between parents and children.
Thank you for making me a decision maker in early stage of my life. You made me take some responsibilities since young age and tried to make me financially independent. It is because of that trust you bestow upon me I am able to take care of home and mom after your sudden departure from this world.
Thank you for believing in me, thank you for believing that I am strong enough, capable enough to take care of household and of Us (Mom and I). You hardly wanted anything for yourself. That’s why, ever since I started earning I tried my best to give you everything you wanted. I wanted to give you much more, but the time has run out. I do promise even in your absence I will fulfil all of your dreams.
Baba I miss you badly; I miss our conversations, our arguments our teaming up against Mom (Well comically, never seriously) I miss you with every breath I take and I will continue missing you for rest of my life. Nothing can change that. But I also hope wherever you are, you are as cheerfully happy as you were with us. Knowing your worrying nature, I want you not to worry about Mom and I. You made us strong enough to cope up any losses comes our way. The only thing I want you is to feel - really, really proud of us.
Once again, HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABUDI! We (mom and I) Love you, Always!
