Happy Birthday Baba

Happy Birthday Baba (Babudi)….



I never had thought you will leave me so soon. I was really not ready to say goodbye. And don’t think I still am ready to say goodbye. How can I? You were (And I hate to write this in past tense) an integral part of my life. My father, my dadio, my Babaudi. There are no words to express my remorse at this point. I know life is uncertain and we don’t have control on life and death. But still, why? Why you had to leave me so soon?

The thing is, we miss you a lot. The home has lost its voice. It has become so quiet since you left. The walls too wait for you to talk in your unique style. Oh, what won’t I give to talk to you endlessly again.

I know every kid thinks this about their father and I am no different- You are my Hero!


I know how much struggle you had in your life. But you never showed it on your face nor in your conversations. All you had were stories of your adventures in life. I miss our conversations on general knowledge, travel, books, movies and series. It was you who introduced me to English movies and novels. It was you who made me fall in love with literature. Thank you for giving me the gift of reading. Due to this gift I am never lonely.

You gave me everything in abundance. It is because of that whenever anyone asked me “What do you want?” I had difficulties answering that as you have given me everything I ever wanted whenever I wanted.

Since very beginning you insisted me to fluent English. That was the reason that against everybody else’s wish you admitted me in English School rather than our local language one. And now at this point I cannot thank you enough as this decision of yours made my future life so much easier.

Thank you for raising me as a free thinker. You never even once tried to impose me with your opinions. You gave the opinions but never made me follow them. You gave me choice to make my own opinions. You guided me through life’s path but never made me live it with any sorts of rule. It is because of you I am an unbiased free thinker. And I am very proud of this.  

I know I was apple of your eye. Even when we had our arguments, which use to happen many a time; we both knew it was only because we cared deeply for each other. You never missed a chance to show me how much you loved me, cared for me. I just hope you knew it that, I love you and cared about you the most too.

I am very proud of the fact that I was able to share each and every thing with you. There hadn’t been a topic I couldn’t share with you. You made me share everything so comfortably that I never feared what will you think if I share my opinion about a thing which was different from yours. I still do remember the faces of people when they caught us talking upon the topics which are usually never discussed between parents and children.

Thank you for making me a decision maker in early stage of my life. You made me take some responsibilities since young age and tried to make me financially independent. It is because of that trust you bestow upon me I am able to take care of home and mom after your sudden departure from this world.

Thank you for believing in me, thank you for believing that I am strong enough, capable enough to take care of household and of Us (Mom and I). You hardly wanted anything for yourself. That’s why, ever since I started earning I tried my best to give you everything you wanted. I wanted to give you much more, but the time has run out. I do promise even in your absence I will fulfil all of your dreams.

Baba I miss you badly; I miss our conversations, our arguments our teaming up against Mom (Well comically, never seriously) I miss you with every breath I take and I will continue missing you for rest of my life. Nothing can change that. But I also hope wherever you are, you are as cheerfully happy as you were with us. Knowing your worrying nature, I want you not to worry about Mom and I. You made us strong enough to cope up any losses comes our way. The only thing I want you is to feel - really, really proud of us.

Once again, HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABUDI! We (mom and I) Love you, Always!

Alan Rickman…..His legacy will remain…..

                        I was not a huge Hollywood fan till Harry Potter happened; in fact I was not a reader till I watched Harry Potter. My first ever book I read is “Harry Potter and Prisoner of Azkaban”. Hence I knew “SNAPE” before Alan Rickman. And, as any other HP fans, I hated Snape and didn’t bother knowing a bit more about the actor playing him. It was only after when I finished reading ‘Harry Potter and Deathly Hallow’ I fell in Love with Snape. I mean most of HP fans did. It was only then I started digging more on the actor who played Snape. That’s how I learned about Mr. Rickman. I remember, when I first Googled him I was shocked to learn his age, he was 61 at that time. I was shocked because Snape looked so young and charming I imagined the actor in his mid 40. I was surprised that Mr. Rickman, though crossed 60, looked more charming than his Screen’s counterpart. 

    It was then I just fell in Love with him and started pursuing him. And made it my quest to watch all of his movies and so far I have been successful in watching most of them. And each movie had a miraculous effect on me. His voice….Oh his voice. I believe his voice is an essence that made all his movies magnificent. He has played so many characters and yet all of his character stands out from one another and make different impacts on people. I cannot pick just one favorite character played by Mr. Rickman as apart from Severus Snape he has portrayed so many awesome characters.

                            From vicious Hans Gruber in Die Hard, the Nefarious Elliot Marston in Queigly Down Under and Sheriff of Nottingham in Robin Hood, the Sensual Colonel Brandon in Sense and Sensibility, the admirable Sinclair Bryant in Close my Eyes, the arrogant Interrogator in Closet Land, the Mesmer, the dark Rasputin, the strategical Éamon de Valera in Michel Collins, the mysterious David Weinberg of Dark Harbor, the competitive Phil Allen in Blow Dry, the bitter John Gissing, the ambitious Dr Alfred Blalock in Something the Lord Made, the  vengeful father, Antoine Richis of  The Perfume, the not so Noble Eli Michaelson, the Cruel Judge Turpin in Sweeney Todd, the semi-anti motivational Steven Spurrier in Bottel Shock, the adulterer Harry in Love Actually and to My most favourite Alex Hughes in Snow Cake. I watched them all multiple times and every time fell in Love with Alan a little bit more. 

                     Apart from his screen portraying what I adored about Alan is his love story with Rima. They hitched in 2012, few years back but they had been together for last 50 years. “50 YEARS”. This is a statement for those who believe that celebrities are likely to change partners easily and low at commitment. Alan and Rima are huge example of True Love. Their love is a proof that you can be committed to each other irrespective of your profession, your social standard. Whenever I think of relationships I think of them, as in I want a relationship that strong.  I cannot even begin to imagine what Rima must be going through right now. I hope she gets the strength to deal with such a loss.        

                     When I joined my current company “Harry Potter and Deathly Hallow part-2” was on its way to release. My office colleagues are familiar with Harry Potter, but weren’t familiar with Alan. That made me a little sad, that how come such a legendary actor is being unnoticed by many (well actually I was ignorant about him too till 2009 ;)). I couldn’t stop babbling about him, his work. And today most of friends and family members do know Alan, which is fulfilling. It is because they know how obsessed I am of Alan, my friends called and texted me when they learned the news of his death.  Because they know how I feel about it. I feel I have lost a part of me. I don’t know why I am so obsessed with him and that is okay. And it is okay if nobody understand this that why I am affected by death of an Actor. It is okay if people won’t’ get what Alan meant to me.  I am happy to Love him without any practical reasons. 

                              Even though I’m devastated right now I want to promise myself that his death won’t affect me negatively. Yes, he has left us, but the way he inspired so many souls knowingly and unknowingly will keep its charm forever. I believe his fans who are working and aspire to work in film industry, the people who have work with Alan will keep being inspired by his work. His fans and followers will remain his fans forever; will keep him in their hearts and re-watch his movies hence our Alan will be with us forever. And the writers, for whom he has been a muse, will keep writing characters which will remind everyone of Alan. His Legacy will remain……..

                                        It is not necessary that a person has to be in your life physically to change it. Yes, I have never met him and it kills me to think that I never will, but Alan will remain a huge part of my life…                                          ALWAYS…